Dear Olive,
This week, you and I took the last opportunity we'd have for a while, to get away for a few days with my family. Dewy mornings on the swing, ridiculously sunny days spent outdoors, lots of time with cousins - there was a ton of fun to be had and of course it went by in a flash. You desperately didn't want to come home. In a way, neither did I. I start my full-time-for-four-months job on Monday, and I'm not sure how much I'll be around this space for the next little while. I still can't yet get my head around how we're going to do it - run a household, and organise you, with Shane and I both working what will presumably be mega hours. But mostly, I'm just worried about how much I'm going to miss you! I've been embarrassingly teary today, and I kept you home from kindy to have just one last lovely day together. And yet, at the same time, I'm rather looking forward to this job. I think it's going to be a good one for me. Ah, the never ending push pull of motherhood. Will I ever get used to it?
This week, you and I took the last opportunity we'd have for a while, to get away for a few days with my family. Dewy mornings on the swing, ridiculously sunny days spent outdoors, lots of time with cousins - there was a ton of fun to be had and of course it went by in a flash. You desperately didn't want to come home. In a way, neither did I. I start my full-time-for-four-months job on Monday, and I'm not sure how much I'll be around this space for the next little while. I still can't yet get my head around how we're going to do it - run a household, and organise you, with Shane and I both working what will presumably be mega hours. But mostly, I'm just worried about how much I'm going to miss you! I've been embarrassingly teary today, and I kept you home from kindy to have just one last lovely day together. And yet, at the same time, I'm rather looking forward to this job. I think it's going to be a good one for me. Ah, the never ending push pull of motherhood. Will I ever get used to it?
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I don't think you ever get used to the 'push and pull' of motherhood. My youngest started nursery and is there as I write this for three hours.
Part of my enjoys the time by myself. Part of me wishes he was here, knowing that soon school will beckon, and that will be that.
Leanne xx
I'm so glad to hear you guys managed to escape for a little break before things get a little crazy.
I bet you'll surprise yourself how well you juggle everything. I always find that the busier I am, the more productive and motivated I seem to be. less time to think and procrastinate and worry!
You'll be amazing... although, yes, you'll certainly miss that sweetheart of yours. I bet the times that you do have together will be extra fun though... no time to be taken for granted!
Thinking of you xxx big love xxxx
P.S - these photos are seriously gorgeous!!
Oh this makes my heart squishy. The need to work, it helps define us outside our mommy-ness -the part of us that is creative and a woman; yet we have such a pull to be with our little ones. It is the forever imbalanced balancing act.
I am sure you will come through with applause though!
Thinking of you as you enter this next phase.
AND your photos are amazing. Delightful and beautiful all mixed in together. xo
Love the balance with which you write Kellie. Hope it all travels smoothly
xxx
Let go of any guilt you may be carrying and enjoy your days. Live in the moment of 'now'.
I love these images of daily life, it looks fresh and fun. I always love visiting your space Kellie. It refreshes me.
xx
beautiful pictures.
(and amen to that whole push and pull line. from one mama who feels all sorts of guilt that i'm not perfect all the time, to you... best of luck with everything. xo)
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